Grays 2013

Grays 2013

Wednesday, June 1, 2016

REAL Parenting

Does anyone else feel inadequate as a parent? I mean really I can't be the only one right? I sit here in hopes that exposing my gross inadequacy will only give others of you out there permission to give yourself grace. If I am the only one then the light needs to be shed on that too and more therapy is needed. 

Today was one of those days when my sweet child that has sensory issues was just a bit unhappy about current changes in our schedule. Mainly that his older brother being home because school is out. He has been off the charts with aggression. I know as his mom that I need to intervene quickly so it does not escalate but lets be honest I was hungry (translated hangry) and just wanted to eat so I let it go too far. Then we both exploded. Not the best way to deal with a sensory meltdown by the way. 
It all ended with me and him sitting in his bed crying. Not my finest mommy moment. Oh and I forgot to mention all of them had been fighting ALL morning over really stupid stuff. So the perfect storm was created. It ended with me apologizing to my children. They are so use to this that they barely blink anymore. 

My husband bless his heart gets to hear all about as he walks in the door. To which he stands and in trying to be supportive just stares blankly at me as I cry and rant about how terrible of a mom I am.
surely feeling helpless and scared all at the same time. 

This parenting this is no joke.  I just hope that I am not the only one that is wondering how in the world I am going to raise these 4 boys without completely causing them to hate women because they have serious mommy issues. 

Today I am choosing to focus on grace. Just as I had to apologize to my kids I also had to apologize to the one who created them. And the same one that created them has extended grace by sending His son to die for me, a sinner. 

So mommy's raise your hand if you are frustrated, exhausted, impatient and downright feel like a failure and then look up! God loves you and there is grace extended to you!