Yes, unfortuantely we are in a season of mourning in our house. This is not a season I am unfamilar with having lost two children and my father in a car accident eight years ago. My most resent loss happened three weeks ago. We found out on Januray 11th that I was pregnant. We had been trying for 2 years to get pregnant so we were so excited. Three weeks later we got the news that there was not a heartbeat and I had to undergo a D&C. This devestated us as a couple but for me it opens old wounds.
To be totally honest it makes me angry.....
And as strange as this may sound this is a new emotion for me. I did not have anger when Josh and Jennifer died. I believe it is because I was covered with the grace of God. However this seemed to me that God was cruel to allow me to get pregnant and then take yet another child from me. So at this crossroad I am forced to make a decision to either believe what I know about God or to walk away.
For today I choose to believe what I know about God. In spite of the pain, sorrow, and anger I will hold on to the only thing I know.
Grays 2013
Oh Susan, I am so sorry. Thank you for sharing your journey.
ReplyDeleteoh Susan and Russell, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Although it seems cruel and unruley to have something so precious taken from you, all things happen for a reason i truely believe. You know God is good and will never lay anything on your shoulders that you can't handle! As you already know it will take time to heal and with all the love from family and friends you will make it through these trying times. this is just an obsticle that you will overcome. Love always, Brendah
ReplyDeleteKeep on believing! If you need help to cross this raging river, I will gladly hold your hand and pull you along! I love you, precious friend!
ReplyDeleteKeep choosing Christ. Keep choosing trust. Keep fighting for JOY!
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